Because I See the World Differently

unicorn-hunter said: Sounds to me like it’s fanfic time!

Wait did you mean I need to write fanfic, or read it? Cause my fanfic writing days ended a while ago…

I have a problem. I have some feelings that have resurfacing during my current play-through of Dragon Age 2 that are making it harder for me to be excited about Dragon Age 3. It’s not the fact that we haven’t heard anything about the game that is supposedly coming out by the end of this year. It isn’t the fact that I’m worried that the new game will be bad (the writers have made it abundantly clear that the writing is going to continue to be awesome). And it’s not that I’m worried that something horrible is going to happen (like the game is going to be missing the ending… Again). Okay, I am a little worried about that last one… My apprehension relates directly to my favorite character. And no, I don’t mean Isabela. She is my favorite companion character, and my currently the top of my fictional character crush list and some days she is my favorite character, but today that’s not who I mean. I mean Hawke.

Hawke is my favorite character in the whole of the Dragon Age universe. She’s strong, cares deeply for her family and friends, and no matter how ruthless you want your Hawke to be, that will always remain. My Hawke that I normally play (and I’ve tried to change, but other than class, I have a hard time changing) a female, snarky/sarcastic flirt. Which means my Hawke is kind of like me (if I ever had to deal with life or death situations and fight my way through life). And that’s why I connected so much with her. Our situations are completely different. I live a pretty comfortable life as a masters student in a program that pay for my school. But I can connect with her views on friendship and family. I’m super protective of them and I want what is best for them. While Hawke does not need to be friends with everyone (I mean in my game I normally have one or more rivals) but even if you go down the rivalry path, Hawke and co. still respect each other (at least Fenris did say that last time I talked with him). Other than that, I can also be a sarcastic asshole like purple Hawke… But what does that have to do with why I’m not as excited for DA3? To put is simply, I’m not done with Hawke and her story.

Now it’s pretty obvious to anyone who knows me, that I love the characters from DA2 so it is hard to let them go. But I have no doubt that I will hear from some of them (if not all of the companion characters) again. But the same cannot be said for Hawke. Sure we may hear about Hawke again, but what about her family? There are so many factor and variables that relate to the Hawke family, that it is highly unlikely that we would see them again. And that makes me so sad. Bioware has even said that Hawke’s story is done, so by extension, their family (what is left) would be part of that. But I’m not ready to be done with Hawke’s story. I want more. My hopes were dashed last year when we were told that DA2 was done and that and expansion pack was scrapped. Now the closure that I need from Hawke’s story, cannot be reached. I’m going to have to live with that, forever. 

Dragon Age 2 is my favorite video game. Hands down. It showed me some thing about myself and really helped me as a person. Also, I really love talking about it with people. I love DA2 more than any other video game (which isn’t hard since I’ve player relatively few) but it also ranks as one of my favorite things ever, right up there with Buffy the Vampire Slayer, Doctor Who (the first four series of the new series and the specials) and Fullmetal Alchemist (the original series and Brotherhood). And part of the reason that I love this game so much is that the characters are so interesting and deep and flawed and have so much to say. And Hawke was not excluded from that. I love Hawke and I can’t wait to cosplay her later this year. This current play-through has been one of the best and worst. It rekindled by love, but also my sorrow. So in conclusion; I love Hawke. I will always love Hawke. And that love makes me apprehensive for the future, especially the future without Hawke.

Now I’m worried that it’s going to take me forever to actually finish this play-through… And I’m only a few hours and one DLC from the end.

Last night I watched two hours of TV, one amazing and one that was beyond awful…

For those how haven’t been watching Once Upon a Time, you should be. The season finale was awesome. And at one point Audry and I started to refer to the characters kind of like they were in a video game (it had to do with traveling parties and the like). Also, there was at least one time when I was about to cry. Overall, it was amazing! And if you want to catch up on the show, the first season is on Netflix. Once Upon a Time is starting to become one of my favorite TV shows. Maybe it’s the mix of Disney fairytales and interesting characters. No it’s not perfect/

That was followed up by Smash. Not my best idea. That show is a mess and the acting has gotten terrible… I’m glad it got canceled. 

On another note, COMMUNITY IS COMING BACK!!! I’m so excited! #Sixseasonsandamovie